Thursday, July 16, 2015
Brain on holiday
Ever felt so beaten down, so utterly exhausted by life that you end up sitting in a catatonic state for hours? I have before, and I feel like I'm a hair-trigger away from returning to that dark place. Perhaps it's the brain's way of shutting down when it's overwhelmed. Just like the the body falls unconscious when bombarded with images and sensations it cannot handle, I think the brain also has a security mechanism that prevents it from short-circuiting by causing it to go into a fuzzy, numbing "f*** that sh**" state. Too much negativity has been happening lately in my life, and conversely, not enough positive. I am caught between feeling anxious and concerned about absentee loved ones (which are probably staying away from me due to all this negativity), to totally despondent about art and society. Apologies to all if I go radio-silent for a while... My brain gives up... It needs a holiday.